All tagged motherhood

The "Mother Wound"

The relationship with your mother is often the first. It sets the tone for how you think, communicate and interact with yourself and the world around you. A mother’s role is to nurture, protect, empower and ultimately set free her child. What happens then if one of those needs isn’t fulfilled? Enter— the Mother Wound.

I’m not a “mean mom,” just a tired one.

I recently attended a holiday party at a girlfriend’s. It was a moms night out that I really was looking forward to. These days, it takes a lot of energy to tuck the kids in, get myself out of yoga pants, and drive after dark. 

When I arrived I was surprised to not know any of the other women aside from the hostess. Other mommas were gathered at tables already engaged in conversation. I immediately felt myself tense up. I began to think: I should have stayed home.  I feel out of place.  And I’m too tired to make the effort to get to know anyone new.  

The Sober Truth About Sobriety

This time last year I realized something. I was condemning myself for not doing all the things I thought I was suppose to do to stay sober. I wasn’t reading sober literature. I wasn’t attending meetings. I wasn’t sponsoring other alcoholics. And then it happened— while I no longer feared losing my sobriety, I feared what I was taught in AA, that I would lose the life I had worked so hard to create. I began feeling not good enough. I felt like I was failing. Not measuring up. Not checking off all those boxes. Was I a sober fraud?

What I've learned after 1 year on Instagram

I just celebrated 1 year on Instagram. One year since I decided to lean into an unknown space, take a chance on myself and my work, and hit "publish" on my first post. It was a quote by Maya Angelou that reads "there is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you,” which is the “why” of why I started an IG page. It has been a mountain of learning; about myself, my balance and boundaries, and it’s been a gift of finding supportive folks to connect and work alongside.
Here are a few things I have learned along this crazy journey that I wish I would have known from the start:

My last will + testament

With Christmas fast approaching and the hustle and bustle of holiday festivities, this was the last thing I wanted to finish. But it needed to be done as in the blink of an eye- life can change and I could be gone. My husband urged me to share it with all of you, and so here it is. I hope it encourages you to write a few things down for your loved ones too.

What my second child is already teaching me

When I had my first daughter, I was so anxious and worried all the time. I didn't have the confidence as a mother yet, and focused a lot of energy on getting her into a routine. I stressed whether I was doing "it right," and each day felt like a such a blur. Now with my second just two weeks old, I'm already realizing how different it is. She's teaching me a lot!

Heart Gifts

I'm learning to love myself more, by sharing myself with you. That's the beauty in the ashes, the silencing of the shame. It happens amidst the share, not in spite of it.

Doomsday o'clock

As a new mom last year, I couldn't get over the amount of times people would say, "oh just you wait." It was as if I should brace for impact, expect for it to get worse (if possible?), and hold on for dear life. Imagine feeling as if doomsday was lurking just around the corner, and I didn't have a shot in hell at out running it.